Five Points, Vol. 7 No. 3

Spring 2003

From Robert Olen Butler, “Art does not come from the mind. Art comes from the place where you dream.”

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Anne Marie Macari

When I asked her how the world began
my mother’s face went blank.

I was very young, trying for the first time
to see the universe as endless.

All I saw was darkness swirling into itself.
How could anything be endless?

But how could it be contained? By what? All cosmos
held in the crook of an elbow?

There were no answers, though I thought the clouds
were great wings trying

to help me, and thought my blood changed
directions. What could I be

but an echo? Stranded here while the universe
grows like a belly dense

with stars. And I thought we were all orbiting inside
that belly, and light could pass

through me but I wouldn’t feel it. Years later,
in a fit of love, my son told me

how he was conceived. He said he stood in a cloud
and pointed at me. I want her,

he said, and put down his bow and arrow and came
when my back was turned

and entered through my shoulder blades.
What I don’t know

is everything: stars, sand, salt, dust,
molecules and atoms,

and how they come scudding through the door
full of news from distances

I can’t imagine. Some day I’ll tell my sons
the truth, that I knew they

were coming. Nothing I could see or even
feel but a woman has

that sense of herself sometimes, that she is permeable,
the cells inside her

gathering and spreading. I hate to think
of galaxy after galaxy.

All matter burning up and shucked off.
The endless signs of demise

and change. I still can’t grasp how anything
at all can exist and what

made the maker. And sometimes I’m so choked
with love I forget

my own ignorance. Maybe just at that moment
light is pressing through

a tree and reaching my window, and I am
satisfied, joyful,

though I know there’s nothing there, just light,
announcing itself, coming through.